fall fashion wishlist

I sort of went shopping yesterday and I found just about a million things in h&m that I wanted in my closet for the fall. Let me just add this in really quick: h&m is quite possibly the greatest moderately priced clothing store ever created. I am thinking about only shopping there for the rest of my life but of course I am not going to do that because that is not logical and I know places like Target and Anthropologie exist. Ok, I'm done.

This weekend is Labor Day weekend so there are a million and a half sales going on. Here are some things I would absolutely love to wear this fall. Some things are a part of the sales and some are not:

Yas yas yas. This skirt is exactly what I need. It is the perfect length. What you can't see from this picture is that is has a slight texture to it. I saw it in stores a couple of weeks ago and I thought it looked and felt much more expensive than it is. I just got a black and white striped shirt that I want to pair with it. Heck, I'd pair anything with it. 

I think I'm going to need this jacket when the weather starts to get cooler. It looks a little bit like J Crew's Cocoon jacket (or it doesn't at all, I just looked at the J Crew jacket and I'm not sure what I was thinking) and I could see myself wearing it to death. The color is great, the cut is great, and probably more importantly, Karlie Kloss looks great. #girlcrush. 

While we're on the subject of J Crew, this jacket also is amazing and I could definitely see myself wearing it a lot.

While we're still on the subject of J Crew, I will be looking for something like this shirt in this color for fall. 

Here's something a little out of my price-range. This Valentino dress is stunning and has all of my favorite colors...and BUTTERFLIES. How perfect, right? I'd pair it with a while button-down shirt underneath because that's how anyone would style it and wear it underneath the h&m coat. If it got too cold I'd wear black stockings with it. Sigh, if only. 

Something a wee bit more in my price-range but strangely enough also will be sold at Net-A-Porter.com is this Altuzarra for Target dress. The whole line looks fantastic and I'd wear it all but when I saw this dress I immediately knew it was my favorite. If for some reason I actually buy this dress then I'd probably never wear it for fear that I would spill something on it or ruin it. This line comes out September 14th.

Those are the really noteworthy things I am currently wishing I had in my closet for the fall. I think sometime this week I'll do something about accessories and shoes or something. We shall see. If you're my friend you'd buy me everything I mentioned. Just saying. 

Until next time,

Caroline 

Saying goodbye

I recently said goodbye to a few inches of my hair and even though it wasn't done professionally and it wasn't completely even it made me feel so good. My hair was so long and I was so ready to get it chopped off. Chopped off might sound a little deceiving. It was, as I said before, only a few inches but I think those inches made a world of difference. Freedom!

I really recently, like earlier today recently, said goodbye to my friend who is moving far away to go home before moving to England for graduate school. Oh my goodness, I am so unbelievably jealous of her. My friend and I chipped in on a new Kate Spade agenda for her because we wanted to give her a going away present that she'd use a lot and she wanted to get one of these agendas, so voila! I'm really going to miss hanging out with her. I'm kinda bummed we didn't start hanging out more before our senior year of college but, alas, that is how things go.

I'm also saying goodbye to not running. That sentence sounded awkward but I wanted to say goodbye to one more thing. I'm going to the gym today to run 40 minutes again soon. I gotta get back into shape! It's funny how I thought I was "in shape" four months ago. I bet four months ago I thought I wasn't in shape. Again, that is just how things go.

Until tomorrow,

Caroline

Feeling hopeless

What's this? A second post in a row? What?! Yes. Believe the rumors! I am back, baby!

Pretty much the only reason why I'm posting again is because yesterday and today I've felt a little bit of anxiety over the "J" word. You know the one. I've found that it is very therapeutic to write about it instead of not. I really got anxious yesterday thinking about it and how I don't have one. Sure, I can get internships (ok, I can't even get internships!) but jobs? I don't think so! I just have the worst luck it seems. I can't help but feel hopeless about all of it.

So here's how I'm dealing with it: applying to jobs! Hey, that's pretty proactive! I've applied to a few jobs already this week! Applying helps me out with the hopeless feeling a little bit but then something will remind me that I don't have anything just yet and the feeling will return. I'm trying, people. I promise.

I think I'm also getting this feeling because my full-time internship is over and summer is almost over and everyone has gone back to school. Remember when I was still in school? That has to be the worst #tbt of all.

This is the plan for the rest of the day:
- look around LinkedIn one more time
- go to the gym and run because that will definitely help me
- get dinner ready
- watch the Nats play the Mariners
- pray that something works out

I just want to emphasize again, I'm trying. I really am. Does this sound a little bit like I'm in denial? It's starting to to me...

Until next time,

Caroline  

I haven't written anything in a long time...

Well hello strangers! I think I started off my last post with that as well. Ok, it's been awhile. I think I only posted once while I had my internship. It was pretty tiring. I got up really early, was on my feet all day, and yelled at kids a lot. When I say a lot I'm not exaggerating. I yelled to get kids to be quiet, clean up, go to lunch, go outside, pay attention while crossing the street, not to stab holes in the trays we gave them, etc. Looking back at everything I don't mind that I yelled a lot. This might sound a little cheesy but I think I found my voice through all that yelling. During one of my last classes I raised my voice because of some reason that has completely slipped my mind and the artist who was teaching the class said, "I know she means business because I've never heard her sound like that." I'm not really one to have a loud yelling voice. If you're like 20 feet away from me and it is mildly noisy in the room I wouldn't have been able to get your attention if I called out. I think now I would be able to get anyone's attention from some distance away. What I'm trying to say is that I think I can produce a substantial sound, which is something I could not do before. I think that is pretty cool.

That wasn't the only thing I gained from the internship. I also got really good at calming down kids who would start to cry. Oh my gosh, kids will cry over anything. They want their mommy/daddy, they don't feel well, they messed up on a project, the list goes on and on. Well I'll share my trick with you now so remember this: when a kid is crying, it is usually over something that is not a huge deal so the best way to get them to stop is to just ask them lots of questions about random things. I swear this works so well. One girl fell on the playground and was pretty torn up because she scrapped her shin. I got her to stop crying pretty quickly by asking her about Pixar movies. By the time I mentioned Ratatouille she was fine. Another girl was crying for some reason and I got her to stop by asking her if she wanted to play tic-tac-toe with me. Maybe this won't work for everyone but I found it pretty foolproof. A pretty thorough knowledge of Pixar movies would definitely help.

Aside from my internship during my second blog-writing hiatus I went to a few concerts, Nats games, and nights on the town. Pretty standard summer stuff. I soon start my next internship and hopefully I can find a job that actually pays me very soon. Wish me luck.

Until next time (soon?),

Caroline