Feeling hopeless

What's this? A second post in a row? What?! Yes. Believe the rumors! I am back, baby!

Pretty much the only reason why I'm posting again is because yesterday and today I've felt a little bit of anxiety over the "J" word. You know the one. I've found that it is very therapeutic to write about it instead of not. I really got anxious yesterday thinking about it and how I don't have one. Sure, I can get internships (ok, I can't even get internships!) but jobs? I don't think so! I just have the worst luck it seems. I can't help but feel hopeless about all of it.

So here's how I'm dealing with it: applying to jobs! Hey, that's pretty proactive! I've applied to a few jobs already this week! Applying helps me out with the hopeless feeling a little bit but then something will remind me that I don't have anything just yet and the feeling will return. I'm trying, people. I promise.

I think I'm also getting this feeling because my full-time internship is over and summer is almost over and everyone has gone back to school. Remember when I was still in school? That has to be the worst #tbt of all.

This is the plan for the rest of the day:
- look around LinkedIn one more time
- go to the gym and run because that will definitely help me
- get dinner ready
- watch the Nats play the Mariners
- pray that something works out

I just want to emphasize again, I'm trying. I really am. Does this sound a little bit like I'm in denial? It's starting to to me...

Until next time,

Caroline