Getting back to it

I put my writing on the back burner for the past couple of weeks and I am just now really realizing why. I think I kind of lost my "voice" after not writing for a very long time. This is all really ironic to me because at my work I've been told recently I have the voice (I don't want to go into detail, but if you worked with me, you'd know what I was talking about). I used to write on here and the words would just flow out. I feel like that was my voice and I had no trouble writing down, and more importantly making sense of, the ramblings in my head. I was reading one of my last posts before writing this and I enjoyed reading it. I think I enjoyed it because it was so me. I'm not sure if I was happier then or I felt more like me then, but man, I could write.

Well, I am going to try to make this more of a habit because I need to feel happier and more like myself. I liked my idea I had the other day and I want to stick with it. It's gonna happen!

I also really liked that old post I wrote because I loved what I was writing about, which was something my mom said about taking things one day at a time. My life is constantly changing, but the one constant is that there is always something that I will need to take one day at a time. It could be getting over a heartbreak, or getting back into running, or getting my voice back, there is always something!

Probably what I liked most about reading that old post and then now writing this is that I felt so much anxiety for the problems I was having and now I had to read what I wrote back then to remember it. This is very comforting to me because in some length of time I will feel the same about the anxiety,  sadness, and problems I am having today. Oh how I wish that day was tomorrow, but alas, it's going to take a little bit longer than that (I really really really really do not like how it has to take longer than that).

It's all going to be ok. I just need to remember that.

Tomorrow I am going to make and then post about my dinner that I am semi-obsessed with. It is a good one.

Until then,

Caroline

ps - I looked at another post I wrote and in both that one and the one I mentioned here, I say "in true ____ fashion...". I love these weird consistencies of mine. I do make myself laugh sometimes.