It seems I am at a stage in my life where opportunities are flying my way and I am so excited for the future and then things take a 180 and I feel utterly hopeless about everything and nothing seems to be going anywhere and vice versa. It's strange. I don't know if I am either very happy or very depressed. I have been running a lot (and I mean a lot, I have a half marathon in less than two weeks!) so maybe my endorphins have been doing an alright job at combating the depression but who really knows. Anyway, it is a very strange stage in my life.
I say that stuff about feeling depressed but now that I think about it my endorphins recently have been doing a great job because the good definitely outweighs the bad. I get excited more than I get mopey.
This must not just be a me thing - people my age have to be feeling the same way. At the end of college my friends and I were so ready to graduate but still very sad to be leaving. There were lots of tears. Lots. But there was also talk about moving on to bigger and maybe seemingly better things. I think all transitional stages are like this and that's just where I've found myself again!
All of this being said, I have an interview on Tuesday that sounds pretty great (it would be an actual paying job !!!!!) and I was just sent a job listing from a friend (who is the best!) that I am for sure applying for that sounds absolutely amazing. Will either of these work out? I don't know. Maybe not! But they sure make the future seem pretty bright.
Until tomorrow,
Caroline
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