I wish I could have written this post on Sunday night instead of today but Sunday was a crazy day. I wish I could have written this Sunday because I wanted to say that my week had been "grool". You know, a combination of great and cool. It was October 3rd last week, which meant that it was sort of like the unofficial Mean Girls day and I was going to stretch it out for a week. If you don't live under a rock you'll know what I mean. Anyway, it has been no secret that I have had a couple up-and-down weeks in the past. In true Caroline fashion I had been freaking out about my future, my finances, my career choices, everything, but I have also been getting great advice from friends and family and feeling really grateful to have people in my life filled with so much wisdom*. This past week and into this week have felt good for me so far and I have actually accomplished a few things that have made me feel a lot more up than down**.
First off, which I think I have said before and that I didn't accomplish last week but still has made me feel extremely up is the internship I have had for a little over a month. I cannot convey how much I love that internship. Everyone I work with is so nice and welcoming and has never made me feel uncomfortable or made me not want to come in to work. The location is the best. All of the work I've been doing has been enjoyable, even the "boring" stuff. I am so fortunate to have gotten to intern there and have learned so much. I cannot say enough good things about it.
Secondly, I got my first out-of-school paying job. This is big because for a long time I thought the only job I could get was an un-paying one or none at all. Granted, this job will not pay a lot, but it is something. I had orientation the other day and the people I met and who will be working with part-time all seem really friendly and funny and makes me excited to start my job there. It's also in an amazing museum with amazing art. Who (I mean mostly just art history lovers when I say "who") could ask for more?
Thirdly, and finally, I ran my second ever half marathon on Sunday with my dad. I think this was my biggest accomplishment to date. My first half marathon, which wasn't exactly a legitimate one and you can go back and read about a few months ago, was something I was extremely proud of after training for so long in the cold and then in the heat with my running buddy. BUT this time was even better. I wasn't consistently training like I was last time and I even had to stop to walk a bit last time. This time I took off 20 minutes from my time and never stopped to walk after not training as much as I wish I did. A major reason why I did that is because my dad kept with me and motivated me to keep going. Also, he is old so if he just zoomed ahead of me that would just be so mortifying, right? Ha, I'm totally just kidding about that but he was much better trained than I was and he is a lot faster than I am. Crossing the finish line was the best feeling in the world (although for the next few days I had a really hard time moving my legs) and it definitely felt like my biggest accomplishment. I sort of have that, "I can do anything" mentality now. Sort of.
These ups have made me happy to be where I am in life. The hopelessness has gone away for a bit and I can breath easier. And, in true Bilbo Baggins fashion, I think I am quite ready for another adventure.
Until next time,
Caroline
*Don't worry, I am still going to have periods of extreme downs and ups. They always find a way into my life to make my feelings awfully bipolar. This is not the end.
**If all had gone to plan I wouldn't have been writing this post after last night's heartbreaking finale for the Nats. My heart actually felt broken. Last night I didn't want to talk to anyone about it and I still don't want to but as a friend told me today, "baseball never lets you down." That is a little out of context but what he meant is that it will return next year and be there for me again and again and while we seemingly failed last night we have more chances to come back and eventually be the team that everyone expects us to be. It made me feel better.
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